I lay on my bed thinking of you now. I lay still in my bed, trying not to fall asleep, crossing the barrier from “awake” to “dreaming” . I listened to sad, heartbreaking music, all about missing someone, someone that get away, someone they had once loved. " What is the word for missing someone, for knowing there is something missing from you because they are not there, when you have never had them to begin with? Does that word exist?" I touched your hand, trying to hold it. I don’t think you know I did, but I felt it. It’s little things like this that I miss, the tiny bits that make up a whole imagined life, something we could have had, if we were two different people. Sometimes I stare at you, and I wonder what you are thinking. You have these soft, kind loving eyes, and sometimes I imagine that they are only this way with me, but I know that can’t be true. I am sure that you look at me just like you look at everyone else; captivating, smart, but ultimately uninterested...
In the blink of an eye, 2 months already passes. I am glad that I am able to survive this 2 roller coaster months. So much things happen and I don't know how to start. However, the most significant events that happen in this 2 months are the 2 dinners that I attended. Like what I told Ms Foo, the most significant person that are not blood-related to me in the past 6 years appear in this 2 dinners. And I am glad that although we do not keep in touch anymore, I am happy to see them in this fateful days. No more words can express my feeling anymore so that's all for the time being. LYN CNY dinner on 20th Jan 2017 Pui Yen wedding dinner on 22nd Jan 2017
30th January 2017 The journey started on chor3 when I coincidently bump into HuiXian in Genting . As we catch-up, we talk about running and as she is thinking of joining half marathon in MWM , I offer to be her pacer and we decided on 2:30hrs as our target. 1 month plus to go before the race, we make a pact to run more to prepare for the race. As soon as my running sifus know that I going to pace HuiXian, I get warned that to be a pacer, there are a lot of things that I need to take care. It's not just about running at our planned pace but to prepare for any eventuality that will happen on race day. As soon, as this feeling sink in, I actually get jittery because I worry that I will not be able to become a good pacer. 19th February 2017 To prepare for the race, we plan to train for at least a few times but we are unable to find time to run together. Finally, 2 weeks before the race. we manage to run together once by joining the MWM running clinic in Sri Hartamas . Pacin...
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