I lay on my bed thinking of you now. I lay still in my bed, trying not to fall asleep, crossing the barrier from “awake” to “dreaming” . I listened to sad, heartbreaking music, all about missing someone, someone that get away, someone they had once loved. " What is the word for missing someone, for knowing there is something missing from you because they are not there, when you have never had them to begin with? Does that word exist?" I touched your hand, trying to hold it. I don’t think you know I did, but I felt it. It’s little things like this that I miss, the tiny bits that make up a whole imagined life, something we could have had, if we were two different people. Sometimes I stare at you, and I wonder what you are thinking. You have these soft, kind loving eyes, and sometimes I imagine that they are only this way with me, but I know that can’t be true. I am sure that you look at me just like you look at everyone else; captivating, smart, but ultimately uninterested...
In the blink of an eye, 2 months already passes. I am glad that I am able to survive this 2 roller coaster months. So much things happen and I don't know how to start. However, the most significant events that happen in this 2 months are the 2 dinners that I attended. Like what I told Ms Foo, the most significant person that are not blood-related to me in the past 6 years appear in this 2 dinners. And I am glad that although we do not keep in touch anymore, I am happy to see them in this fateful days. No more words can express my feeling anymore so that's all for the time being. LYN CNY dinner on 20th Jan 2017 Pui Yen wedding dinner on 22nd Jan 2017
Dear Crush, I always remember admiring you in all the pictures in the group before I met you years ago. You are so photogenic in those running photos and I wonder how you look so good in those photos. Along the years, although I join a lot of running events, I can't seem to see you in any of the events. Until one fine day, back in 7th June 2015 , when I get invited to join a random gathering at Underground Societe . No, I do not know that you are coming. And I am star-struck when you appear soon after I reach. As talkative as I am all the times, I can't believe that I don't even have a proper conversation with you on that night. However, I still remember how happy am I on that fateful night. Along the years, I make contact periodically and trying to get to know you personally. I think I am a boring guy and I do not manage to even catch your attention to reply to me. However, I still keep updated with all your news and I am so excited when I saw your ph...
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