I lay on my bed thinking of you now. I lay still in my bed, trying not to fall asleep, crossing the barrier from “awake” to “dreaming” . I listened to sad, heartbreaking music, all about missing someone, someone that get away, someone they had once loved. " What is the word for missing someone, for knowing there is something missing from you because they are not there, when you have never had them to begin with? Does that word exist?" I touched your hand, trying to hold it. I don’t think you know I did, but I felt it. It’s little things like this that I miss, the tiny bits that make up a whole imagined life, something we could have had, if we were two different people. Sometimes I stare at you, and I wonder what you are thinking. You have these soft, kind loving eyes, and sometimes I imagine that they are only this way with me, but I know that can’t be true. I am sure that you look at me just like you look at everyone else; captivating, smart, but ultimately uninterested...
Dear Crush, I always remember admiring you in all the pictures in the group before I met you years ago. You are so photogenic in those running photos and I wonder how you look so good in those photos. Along the years, although I join a lot of running events, I can't seem to see you in any of the events. Until one fine day, back in 7th June 2015 , when I get invited to join a random gathering at Underground Societe . No, I do not know that you are coming. And I am star-struck when you appear soon after I reach. As talkative as I am all the times, I can't believe that I don't even have a proper conversation with you on that night. However, I still remember how happy am I on that fateful night. Along the years, I make contact periodically and trying to get to know you personally. I think I am a boring guy and I do not manage to even catch your attention to reply to me. However, I still keep updated with all your news and I am so excited when I saw your ph...
I turn 30 on 15thSept2011 & seriously, I manage to LIVE that LONG!!! Now counting my blessing, I wish to list down TEN blessings in my life till now =) 1. Alive & kicking ^^ 2. Healthy 3. Great parent 4. A big brother 5. A younger sister 6. Close relatives 7. A whole bunch of good friends 8. An interesting job 9. My faith in Buddhism 10. My love in reading & hiking
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