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*disclaimer* This is an emo post. Read at your own risk :p  Christina Perri say : 'Distance' is a song about loving someone at the wrong time in your life, maybe its too soon, maybe its too late  but never the less its about being around that one whom your heart longs for without being about to show your true feelings, without being able to tell them.  And now, I need to do what she is singing; keeping the distance on the one person that I fall with. The feeling is heart-breaking but I know I won't be able to touch her heart and make her fall for me. Not sure whether I am that bad but I know I am not good enough. Thinking of her every waking minutes, wanted to message her all the time but prohibiting myself from doing that. Time will make my feeling fade but at this moment, I really want to still hold on to this feeling. But I realise that ' 最后的疼爱是手放开 ' :'( And letting go of her is also a release for me. P.S.: Missing you every moment, wishing you...

Meeting you is a fate entwined in so many ways, liking you is unexpected, but falling for you is something that I cannot control. Sept. 1, 2011 - mark the first time I met you. As much as you don't like to wake up early to go for activity, you somehow join them for the hike. And that is your first and I believe, only hike. For me, I am not even in the group and only know a friend that is going to the hike, but knowing myself, I stupidly message her the night before and say I want to join. And that's how I get to know you. Feb 26, 2012 - the first time I going out with you for dinner and movie after months of messaging. I have so much fun teasing you and get to know you more. Our friendship officially start on that day. Our first movie Messaging you become a habit to me. In the morning, wishing you a good day and at night, wishing you sweet dream. Teasing you as much as I can, I sometimes worry that I tease you too much. Not realising along the way, I st...

Recalling back this day last year, I remember it was a very historical day for Malaysia as a whole. This is the day when Malaysians as a whole, coming out in forces to rally for a better future of Malaysia. This day also culminating into me deciding to join BERSIH 3.0 on 28th April 2012 and get into war with Malaysia with hundreds of thousands of Malaysians. However, what I did on 709? On this day, I lost a friendship. I remember I went to watch  Transformers: Dark of The Moon with one of my close friend. And the first time I ate at WENDY's . Hahaha ~_^ This event etched into my heart because this is the last time I watch movie with her and since then, one year have passed and our friendship deteriorating until almost non-existent. From the times when we can talk and messages each other everyday, but now, I don't even know her present situation, present life, and present work. To be fair, I know that girls do this to friends when they get a boyfriend but then, I still...

5th May 2012 marks the 2,556th Year of Buddha Era. As a Buddhist, I celebrate this festival to commemorate  the birth, enlightenment, and death of the Buddha. 4th May 2012, Wesak's eve, ending the year with celebrating Wesak's eve at Buddhist Gems Fellowship (BGF), joining in the Puja, listening to Bro Benny Liow's talk and capped with performance by iGemz. iGemz Naughty Aiden 5th May 2012, starting the new year in the morning at BGF, with lots of activities planned by BGF such as morning puja, performance by the iGemz kid, talk, blessing (get a red string ) and lunch dana. Performance by the Kids The main highlight of the day will be bathing of the baby buddha. This symbolises the purification of our mind to remove our mental dirt of greed, hatred and ignorance.  Preparing myself to walk for a long distance at night, I get back home to have a good rest after lunch dana.  Buddhist Maha Vihara The most beautiful procession Bea...

April 28, 2012 will forever be etched into my heart. This is the day I stand up for what I believe in as a Malaysian, and the day I walk with ten of thousands of Malaysian. A peaceful start   My day started early in the morning when I get out from my house at around 9.30am. Fearing that there will be road blocks, I insist of fetching a friend of mine, ON in Cheras and not meeting him in the city. From there, we proceed toward the capital. To make a long story short, after some difficulties (driving, walking and taking bus), we manage to reach the cordoned-off Dataran Merdeka around 12.00pm. There is festive-like atmosphere and the crowd is enjoying themselves taking pictures, sight-seeing and chatting around. We joined the crowd, took pictures and walking around Dataran Merdaka due to the fact that we cannot enter  the square. Walking around, I cannot help to realise that every races is there attending this so-called rally. What a sights to behold!!! A...

1st run of the year, participating in 10km and without any preparation, my timing suck big time. The run is held at National Stadium Bukit Jalil on 11th March 2012. Personally, I think the organisation is not really good compare to Malakoff and Adidas KOTR that I attended last year. I am stuck at the starting point for 4 minutes before I reach the starting line. The first kilometer is a nightmare because there are too many peoples aroun d and I am not able to even jog at all. My result: RkCat Bib Name Official_Time Net_Time 442 J5321 LEE YONG WEI 01:17:12 01:12:53 Finisher medal but no certificate :( Participate with two 1st-timer for 10km run, Shu Ning and Wen Yi Meet Ann Ric and gang after finishing line

My first and last BLIND DATE -.- It all started with a simple message to my WhatsApp on the fateful day, 30 Jan 2012 at 1.59pm. Friend: Yong Wei, are you attached? Me: No, any girl to intro? Friend: Yes, I am thinking of setting you up with a friend. Me: -.-''' OK. Let me know then. So, my adventure begin. My friend exchanged our h/p numbers and me, as a guy send SMSes to her to arrange the location, date and time for the blind date. On that fateful day, as nervous as I am, I remind myself that this is just a simple meet-up with a new friend. Seriously, I am so friendly that I don't think I cannot handle this meet-up. How wrong can I be. The whole date took less than 1 hour. We met at Parkson entrance and decided to go to Fullhouse for lunch. From the first impression, I can see that she is a very quiet person, shy and timid. But seriously, if a girl agree to go out for a blind date, at least she is ready to communicate. But then... During the date: 1. My questions came...

Sometimes I wonder whether it's just a crush or I already fall in love with you. I know we are not meant to be together for you are too good to be true. Thanks for all the time that you spend with me. The memories will be kept in my heart for as long as my heart is beating.