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Weekend coming... Yeah.... Can rest.. Going to play squash and hopefully can swim later.... This weekend full of activities... Planning to get my leather shoe (why so little choice and damn expensive for men's wear???) and also spec tomorrow.... Sure 'broke' but I damn need it..... Tomorrow also reunion for my primary school in StarBuck's Centro.... How many years already since primary six? 14yrs... Can you believe it? Haha :0 Old old YongWei.... So many friends not since since then... How many will come? Not yet know... Need to take more photo so that will know how much we have change :) How about Sunday? Ehh... Not sure yet... But hopefully can tidy up my room... I think my car's boot also need some spring cleanning :p Haven't check and clean since CNY... Hehe.... Lazy lazy....

I actually plan to write about this long time ago. After feeling down and out for the past few days, I think I should write down to release this big burden of mine :( Maybe in future, I can take a look back and see how childish I am. Why does everyone so irresponsible and self-centred? Why us, as a human can only think of ourselves and not others? Not even for tiny little things. Why must we be so unappreciative to others? I think I should try to learn this. To learn to be unappreciative, uncaring, selfish, irresponsible and even better, to not become the idiot who think of other needs and in the process hurt himself... Friends... A word that bring up thousand memories and words... But, do I have a real friend? One who never thinking of taking advantage of me? One who is there for me? One who will remember me when I am not around anymore? Many questions with no answers. In many people opinions, I have a lot of friends. My kindie, primary, secondary, Uni, Incovar and a lot more. But is ...

Bukit Tabur, Klang Gate Dam Went to Bukit Tabur last week for company outing. Quite an adventureous trip with some dangerous cliff. Never realise that in KL there is an exciting and beautiful place to go. One of the 'member' of my trip. Found it along the path up to the peak. Not a really tiring trip (around 3.5hours up and down) but dangerous. There are some point where you need to hang to the rope to go down. Enjoying the trip very much.

What should I write now? Why am I thinking about impermanence? Because of Buddhism? I don't know... But what I can see and I can feel now is impermanence... Everywhere I see, I can see impermanence. My life, my work, my relationship and my mind. I realise that life is short. I need to really hit my goals soon or I maybe will never achieve anything (or even worse, try to achieve :( ) Why am I suddenly feel this way? Are there some events happening around me that make my mind go round and round working non-stop? ImpermanenceImpermanenceImpermanence Something my boss say make my system 'shocked' up. What he say that inspire me to want to achieve my goals as soon as possible? 1st, regarding two deaths related to my company that really make me see things clearly. I only been in this company for 2 years. The death of my Singapore's boss last year at the age of 40 (almost, if I remember correctly) and the death of the son of the boss in Philiphine (just around 12 yrs old) make...

Not a new beginning to my life... Nor my work... But the birth of my blog in Blogger :p So, what should I write? About my busy life with endless hours in my lab? Or my boring life with no expectation or goals to achieve? NOOO!!!.. I have a lot of goals in my mind... A lot of things to be done in my life. A thousand question to be answer and a lot of maze to be solved.... But, how to start? When I can start? Which goals should I try to achieve first??? When can I get my PADI license? When can I get my MBA? When can I conquer another mountain? When can I go backpacking in China and Europe? Will my karma in my pass life (good and bad) help me achieve my goals? Dear Buddha, please calm my soul and clear up my mind so I can see clearly what the road I am taking... Please guide me to conquer all obstacles in my life... I take refuge in you... Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!!!