WE BROKE UP

Since past weeks, I have been ask the same question again and again by so many people (friends/relatives). I keep repeating the same answer and it is so tiring (sad/heartbroken) explaining the same thing again.
After last nite All-American Boys Chorus (AABC), I finally decided that I must take the next step and do what is RIGHT and make the announcement NOW.
WE BROKE UP. (after almost 6 years been together)
For those who close to me & her, you probably know the reason. To say that we mutually agreed to break-up is maybe an understatement. We (maybe juz me?) try to make this relationship happen and keep dragging along the way. We (she again saying wanted to break-up) almost broke up before CNY and get back together again and again for the nth times. We are hurting each other and the more I want to love, the more we get hurt. We started drifted away from each other further and further since May.
Finally, I realise that this relationship cannot be happening at the moment. We love for the sake of wanted to be loved and we stay together for the sake of afraid of changes (we already so used to each other after all this years).
From my side of view, I can only say this: "I am not GOOD enough" and I won't be good enough for her (forever?). I try my best all this years but it is still not good enough for her. So, I do what I feel is RIGHT for me (and her) and take the decision.
WE BROKE UP.
15Sept2004-10July2010

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

This day last year 709 (9th July 2011)

Image
Recalling back this day last year, I remember it was a very historical day for Malaysia as a whole. This is the day when Malaysians as a whole, coming out in forces to rally for a better future of Malaysia. This day also culminating into me deciding to join BERSIH 3.0 on 28th April 2012 and get into war with Malaysia with hundreds of thousands of Malaysians. However, what I did on 709? On this day, I lost a friendship. I remember I went to watch  Transformers: Dark of The Moon with one of my close friend. And the first time I ate at WENDY's . Hahaha ~_^ This event etched into my heart because this is the last time I watch movie with her and since then, one year have passed and our friendship deteriorating until almost non-existent. From the times when we can talk and messages each other everyday, but now, I don't even know her present situation, present life, and present work. To be fair, I know that girls do this to friends when they get a boyfriend but then, I still
Read more

I Miss You, And I Never Even Had You; Guy's Version

Image
I lay on my bed thinking of you now. I lay still in my bed, trying not to fall asleep, crossing the barrier from “awake” to “dreaming” . I listened to sad, heartbreaking music, all about missing someone, someone that get away, someone they had once loved. " What is the word for missing someone, for knowing there is something missing from you because they are not there, when you have never had them to begin with? Does that word exist?" I touched your hand, trying to hold it. I don’t think you know I did, but I felt it. It’s little things like this that I miss, the tiny bits that make up a whole imagined life, something we could have had, if we were two different people. Sometimes I stare at you, and I wonder what you are thinking. You have these soft, kind loving eyes, and sometimes I imagine that they are only this way with me, but I know that can’t be true. I am sure that you look at me just like you look at everyone else; captivating, smart, but ultimately uninterested
Read more

My 1st Pacer Experience in Malaysia Women Marathon 2017 Half Marathon

Image
30th January 2017 The journey started on chor3 when I coincidently bump into HuiXian in Genting . As we catch-up, we talk about running and as she is thinking of joining half marathon in MWM , I offer to be her pacer and we decided on 2:30hrs as our target. 1 month plus to go before the race, we make a pact to run more to prepare for the race. As soon as my running sifus know that I going to pace HuiXian, I get warned that to be a pacer, there are a lot of things that I need to take care. It's not just about running at our planned pace but to prepare for any eventuality that will happen on race day. As soon, as this feeling sink in, I actually get jittery because I worry that I will not be able to become a good pacer. 19th February 2017 To prepare for the race, we plan to train for at least a few times but we are unable to find time to run together. Finally, 2 weeks before the race. we manage to run together once by joining the MWM running clinic in Sri Hartamas . Pacin
Read more